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I'm just a 28 year old woman that married the man of my answered prayers on July 18, 2009. We have our sweet Ella that was born in September of 2010 and our precious Charlotte that was born in February of 2012! On March 24, 2013, our first son was born, Josiah Warner. After a complicated pregnancy, he was born very prematurely and lived less than an hour before going to be with Jesus. Through life's ups and downs, I'm trying to figure out how to follow Jesus. I mean, really follow Jesus. The kind of following where things start to change. It's time to put action to the passion

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

More About This Whole Jesus/Bride/Marriage Stuff...

John and I have had a crazy last three weeks! From a trip to Texas, 2 wedding showers, more wedding planning, a marriage preparation class, finding an apartment, and lots more squeezed in there, we are both exhausted. But, somehow, through all of the exhaustion, we have been hearing the voice of God.

We have finally come to peace about a very big decision that will decide our future. But, we also know that we serve a God that is big enough to decide our future and we would much rather Him do it than us try and control it. I'm not going to go into any more detail than that, because I feel like we need more time to stand on the decision before declaring it from the mountaintops. A lot of times when I hear the voice of God on a big decision, I just like to rest in it. And, if people ask me about whatever the topic is, then I can explain where the Lord has led me. Otherwise, I would rather just walk in the decision than letting the world know what God has told me to do. And, in this case, me and my almost-husband got to hear from the Lord together on the decision! Too cool.

Okay, but, anyways, here's the real point to this post...why do people get married anyways?

To complete each other? No! Our completion is found through Jesus Christ! Praise the Lord that it is found in Him and not in an imperfect human being.

To procreate? Absolutely. We are called to disciple our children and send them out in the world to tell people about Jesus. But, I don't believe that this is the only reason by any means.

The answer on why to get married is the typical Sunday school answer...

it's JESUS

It's one more way to look just like Him.

Ephesians 5 pretty much sums it all up. Even though John and I are both still human, with sin in our lives, God will still use our marriage to give the world a picture of Jesus' pursuance of us. We won't need to be married in Heaven because, Jesus will be there to give us the perfect picture of His love for us. Marriage is the closest thing on earth that can give a visual of Jesus' undying love for us.

Jesus will never ever leave His wife, us. He is committed beyond comprehension. John and I are both so grateful that the Lord would allow us to enter into marriage to try and mimic this picture for the world.

Jesus is 100%, madly in love with those that have come to faith in Him. He continues to pursue even when we reject Him. He continues to love even when we feel unlovable. He cleanses us even when the stains feel too deep. And, John and I get the opportunity to paint this picture to everyone through our marriage. What an overwhelming responsibility, but also what a great reason to work on our marriage even when the tough times come.

I love Jesus a whole lot. And, I love the fact that He has given me one more opportunity to share His truth.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

What It Is Like To Be A Bride...

On July 18, 2009, I will become Jennifer Lynn Marszalek Phillips. John and I are exactly 101 days away from getting married. You know, a white dress, a little chapel, and a preacher-man? The thing that I began dreaming about when I was a bride for Halloween in Kindergarten is now becoming true. And, God is teaching us so much more than we ever could have imagined.

I began praying for John way before I ever knew his name. And, now I see the answer to all of those Scripture based prayers in him. I'm glad the Lord didn't let me call it quits when I wanted to give up praying for my husband because it hurt and felt like it wasn't working. But, John and I can see how God used so many of those prayers to bring the two of us to the point we're at now.

We have been learning a different perspective on this whole, Jesus-the church-His grace-His mercy-His unconditional love thing. As many times as I prayed Ephesians 5:22-33 over both myself and my unknown husband, I have gained a new look on it now that we are so close to gettin' hitched. I could go on and on about this forever, but here's the biggest thing that has boggled my mind...

Jesus has made US the bride. We're the ones that get pursued by Him. We're the ones that get to become beautiful on the wedding day with Him. We're the ones that get to feel the excitement of a bride all the time, because Jesus wants us to be excited to be with Him. We get to wear white and feel holy, even though we haven't been. We get to be a fellow heir of Christ. We get unconditional love, grace, and mercy, because He desires us that much. We get to display our relationship with Him in front of a great cloud of witnesses. Too cool.

I love that me submitting to John and loving him is a direct correspondence to our relationship with Christ. I love watching John pursue Jesus. Because, when I submit and pursue John, I know that I am directly following Jesus.

This whole engagement thing has been so stinkin' fun! From all of the highly spiritual stuff like getting a cool gun to register for things at Target and Bed, Bath and Beyond, trying to figure out the best way to decorate the chapel for cheap, or all of the stuff I just wrote, we're having a blast!! I told John that after we get married, he may have to remind me that I'm not a bride any more. No more trying on pretty wedding dresses or getting gifts in the mail like it's Christmas in April. But, I think I'll manage. Because, ultimately, we are always the bride of Christ. And, that's the coolest way that I can think of to be a bride!