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I'm just a 28 year old woman that married the man of my answered prayers on July 18, 2009. We have our sweet Ella that was born in September of 2010 and our precious Charlotte that was born in February of 2012! On March 24, 2013, our first son was born, Josiah Warner. After a complicated pregnancy, he was born very prematurely and lived less than an hour before going to be with Jesus. Through life's ups and downs, I'm trying to figure out how to follow Jesus. I mean, really follow Jesus. The kind of following where things start to change. It's time to put action to the passion

Thursday, February 21, 2013


Another little update about our crazy life these days :-)

Friday night was a little scary in our house. I've come to the conclusion that if something scary is going to happen in this pregnancy, it prefers to take place at the worst time. When you're getting ready for bed is no time for chaos to break loose. But, thankfully, things settled down a few hours later and we were able to get some much needed sleep. I had lots of nightmares that night (I already dream a lot when I'm pregnant), but the Lord was unbelievably gracious and I was able to fall back asleep quickly each time (which, it really was from the Lord because I've battled insomnia this pregnancy and I definitely would've been left wide awake by the dreams).

One thing that Friday night taught us is a better scope of my boundaries. As I posted before, we went out to celebrate Charlotte's birthday and while I really did sit and avoided doing a lot of lifting and such, I obviously was still walking around more than normal. I was selfishly hoping that all would go well Friday and afterwards so I wouldn't be mostly confined to the house. But, as my doctor said at our last appointment "our bodies give us signs when things aren't working right". And, boy, ain't that the truth.

As I've laid around, taken it easy, drank a lot of water, stayed on top of my vitamins, and everything else possible to protect this life growing within and my own, I am consistently reminded of God's protection of us through Jesus Christ. I'm doing everything possible to protect this life that doesn't even know it needs protecting. Baby was happily dancing around in the last ultrasound, oblivious to the odds that have already been conquered and potential threats we may fight along the way. I can't help but think of Jesus leaving His most perfect throne in Heaven to fight for us. To protect us. To call us by name as His child. He died for us so that we could claim His protection over us. He protected us before we ever had a clue that we needed protecting.

I really do believe strongly that baby and I are going to make it out of all this healthy. And, I can honestly say that is only from the Lord. Fear can pervade so easily (especially to someone that *might* tend to be a control freak). I think one of the things the Lord is trying to teach me is how to be still over these next few months. And, how to completely hand over all of the things I do for our family to Him (it's rather easy to feel like you're failing your family when all of a sudden all of the physical things you can do for them has been stripped away). I'm so grateful and humbled that God has chosen our family to refine and teach! I just hope that I choose to listen!

Friday, February 15, 2013

Pregnancy News

So, it's been roughly a million years since I've updated this thing! I love reading other people's blogs, but the time for updating my own was one of the things that went out the window after Charlotte was born! I've always missed it and thought that at some point it may happen again and today looks to be the lucky day ;o)

As many of you already know, we are pregnant again!! Baby is due August 20th and I'm currently 13 weeks along! For those of you keeping track of our circus, that's a month before Ella's third birthday aka we're about to have 3 babies aged 2 and under! Craziness. But, I really do love the idea. Call me crazy, but it honestly sounds like a lot of fun!

What we haven't told as many people is some of what we've been facing the last 13 weeks and what may lie ahead. At 10 weeks, we really thought we were losing the baby. I don't want to go in graphic detail in any of this stuff, but we were devastated. Of course, it was MLK Day which meant that my doctor's office was closed and I really didn't want to go to the hospital. The next morning, we went to the doctor and baby was great!

A week and half later we had some further disconcerting signs, so back to the doctor. We heard the heartbeat and determined all was well until we could have a more detailed ultrasound the next week to figure out what was going on. We were given two possibilities that the doctor believed could be happening. We had the ultrasound and it turns out we hit the lottery! I have both complications! Haha, not to take something serious and make it a joke, but I laughed a lot that day. It was like, hmm, so both of these things are fairly rare and I end up with both of them at the same time? Crazy.

But, ultimately, it means I am on light bed rest and will be in the doctor's office a lot. We are pretty hopeful that miscarriage is off of the table at this point. But, we are the most concerned about the third trimester and what it may hold. We need to keep a close eye on baby's growth and my health at that point. We are extremely confident in our doctor and believe that the Lord has placed me under his care very intentionally. It's all very funny to me because several things happened before all of this that the Lord used to confirm he is the doctor I need to be seeing.

Today we went to the Children's Museum in Atlanta to celebrate Charlotte's birthday with a family outing. We knew it had lots of places to sit and stretch out for me. But, since coming home from that, my body has made it evident that was a little too much. I'm glad we could escape for just a little bit for our sweet newly one year old, though! But, now we just know my parameters a little better :o)

God has already been teaching us a lot and we are so grateful He has given us these blessings known as our children. He is gently reminding us that life is fleeting and not one of us is guaranteed any day. Our children are His, not ours, and that is a strangely comforting, yet heart-wrenching thing all at once. How beautiful it is that we don't have to rely on ourselves to do what only God can. Yet, how we think we would be so much better in control! We are such a foolish people. I do hope to post later more on the lessons God is giving us as we walk through this with joy and trust in Him!

We do covet your prayers and we love you all! Thanks for reading what was hopefully not all over the place, hehe.